Song sung softly.

So much has happened, yet I'm found now in the same position I was in two months ago. In a nutshell:

- University of Phoenix is a business, a fool's college who will take whatever money they can get their filthy, unaccredited hands on. I withdrew three weeks in, and now owe them $900. This has been so stressful for me, we don't have this kind of money to toss around. Alas, there's nothing further I can do to fight it, so I'll be making payments very soon.

- I have, however, enrolled with Austin Community College. My financial aid will not only be paying my tuition fees, but I'll also be receiving an extra $1000 or so per semester. This money is mine, it will be going into my checking account. I'm beside myself with excitement knowing that I will be paid to go to school. I start classes in January, and will be majoring in Psychology. I've always had the desire to learn, and to attend college classes for something I'm interested in. Business is practical, but the joys of higher education will be robbed of me if I take business courses. Instead, I'll major in what I've always wanted to, and it will be fulfilling.

- I was fired from the coffee shop, Star Co., and am still absolutely livid about it. I'd done nothing wrong. I have been nothing less than a fine employee at that crapshoot establishment, I enjoyed my job and the customers loved me. Never late, only called out once. What more could they want from me? Sean reminded me that yes, this is Texas, and I am not run-of-the-mill. I should have expected it. I've been unemployed for just over a week now, and finding something new has not been easy.

- I've been learning how to drive Sean's Jetta. I've never driven stick before, and always grew frustrated when Sean would try to teach me. Now, a friend of mine (who has dedicated his life to teaching) is giving me lessons. I've made considerable progress so far. My self-appointed deadline is the end of November - I'd like to have my license and be completely comfortable driving Sean's car. The sooner, the better. With this, I can get a better job, too.

I suppose those are the major bullet points of my life right now. Things move so quickly, and suddenly come to a screeching halt. I don't know where the current will take me now, but I'm moving with it, and I will not be pulled under.

Sean has been gone for just over two months now. As a whole, the time has passed quickly. Some days, however, drag like an anchor on the ocean's floor. I get through each one with a sense of accomplishment, though. Tuesday marks our first anniversary. One year together. It hardly seems like it's been that long, at a glance, but so much has happened since that beautiful morning in St. Petersburg. I'm not sure what to expect on Tuesday. I may be bitter, callous.. but I'd prefer to be joyful, full of mirth and love and smiling, laughing in celebration. We'll see.