You are the moon.

Not much has happened over the past couple days. The funny thing? I like it. I've stayed at home mostly, spending time on my laptop, reading, knitting, watching movies. I had a Netflix & Chinese food night with Elliott! Although, he didn't get any of my food.. so maybe he wasn't as pleased with the evening as I was. But, I digress. I've been spending time alone, and I'm okay with that. Pleased with it, even. While it may seem unhealthy to some - staying in my pajamas all day, drinking lots of coffee, and going outside solely for cigarettes (hey, it's hot as hell here in Texas!!) - I can honestly say that I'm not unhappy with my days. I'm managing to stay in touch with a handful of close friends, a few I talk to everyday. The freedom to do as I please really is refreshing.

I'm considering quitting my bar job. I've already talked it over with Sean. What I originally thought would be a great change of pace for me has become just another stressor. The Jessica I was in Germany, or even prior to, would have been more than happy to serve and tend bar in this place. The Jessica I've become since meeting Sean, however, is more than discontent working in a dingy hole-in-the-wall, serving drunk bikers, rednecks and mexicans, and coming home sticky with stale beer. It's not where I should be at this point in my life, even if the money is good. It's not worth it. I may or may not work at Star Co. again. It all depends on.....

I'm going to school!! Sean told me he'd really been thinking it through, and he wants me to start classes while he's gone. No sooner than his next message was typed had I pulled up the FAFSA site and started applying. I spent nearly 6 straight hours delving into the depths of the internet, looking for scholarships and grants and researching online schools. The next morning, I was woken up by a call from Ai. Since, I've been absolutely inundated with phone calls from schools I requested information from. Now, I'm leaning towards University of Phoenix.. although when I say 'leaning', I really mean diving in. I've spoken with advisers from there, and have officially put in my application. I think this is actually going to happen. I've got my fingers crossed for good news today from them, and for as much financial aid as I can get.

Aside from all that insanity, life is moving slowly. I've finished Juliet, Naked by Nick Hornby, and have just started The Idiot by, of course, Fyodor Dostoevsky. I'm listening to Akron/Family, and my cat is being annoyingly affectionate. Today will be today. And tomorrow, it'll be tomorrow.