A lesson learned.

  Just as I thought I was getting stronger, just as I thought I had accepted what is to come, I lost my grip.

  I learned a valuable lesson this weekend: too much beer and I become a sloppy, sobbing, devastated wreck.

  That's to be expected though, no? I've seen alcohol bring out the absolute worst in people. I've done my own time in that dark, hidden place in those intoxicated depths of the mind.. but this time was rough. I still have some growing to do. I'm still hurting, somewhere. And I'm certainly aware now that I have limits, and I'll need to be careful if/when I drink again.

  And yesterday, as I spent the day recovering - skinned, bruised knees, sore muscles, one wicked hangover - and regretting, feeling mortified at my actions (which I can still barely remember), Sean was nothing but supportive, forgiving, reassuring. I am reminded everyday, and especially during times like these, that I am truly the luckiest woman. My husband loves me. Unconditionally. Infinitely. His devotion knows no ends. And I am always, always grateful for him. He's my light, my source. Sean, I love you. Thank you.

  In other news, I've taken the first half of my GED exams. The next half is scheduled for June 15 (we see mewithoutYou that night!). It feels good to finally, finally be doing this. I've procrastinated for too long. Hopefully, once I apply for financial aid and a grant or two, I'll be enrolling in some college courses here. I honestly do miss the classroom environment, my mind has been craving new knowledge. I hope everything goes smoothly when that time comes.

  We're planning out what we're going to do during the few weeks of leave he has next month. I've been told Enchanted Rock and Fredericksburg are super fun, and Corpus Christi/San Pedro for beach bumming. Truthfully, we could spend everyday here, at home, lounging around and playing video games and I wouldn't mind, not for a second. But, being the adventurers that we are, looks like we'll be going on some day trips. And I'm perfectly excited about doing that, too.